Failure...To Peace..

Failure was such a wrong word for me when i was a kid. If you fail in any grade it is a bad thing that could ever happen. I only heard people say that you failed, you are poor academically.  Failure was just a taboo. But as i grew older lets say in my 20's i realized that not everything in life will work the way you want. There are times you will be disappointed with the choices that you make, and you would feel as a failure. I used to fret about the mistakes that i made.  It was like ..i should have ..it could have ...kind.  But then again the more older i grew  that's in my 30's i realized that failure is not a bad thing at all.  I learned that it teaches you a lesson to become stronger.
 
Past few months have been really rough on me, in every possible way. I was failing repeatedly. This was the first time in my life no matter what i take up its a failure. When i failed on by plan A, i concentrated on my plan B, then again i failed, now I'm on my plan C. When i failed on my plan A, it was a little jerk, then i told myself to focus. Then Plan B failed, this time i dint feel the jerk at all, as I'm prepared for it. I'm not sure how my plan C would go, but this process has made me stronger in ways i could never imagine. I'm Focused, stopped being emotional, stopped worrying, I'm just concentrating on the things that needs to be done only in a day.I started living for today and being happy for today. I'm content with what i have. It does not bother me for the things that i don't have.I find happiness in small small things. I want to laugh more so i read jokes, listen to one new song that i have not heard everyday, i started chanting at least 10 times the name of the God i like. I think this process has finally taught me how to be peaceful , untouched and unattached with the anything.