just speaking my mind ---

It speaks a lot about a person, just by knowing how they treat you when they are in their own circle of people versus what they talk to you one on one. Very few remain the same at both times---just speaking my mind ---

Flash Back!!


Gazing at the stars
With you in my heart
How I reminisce
The box of thoughts
Which I gift wrapped


As I ravel the wrap
I blush to each thought
When I look back
How I wish I can live back!!

A walk to a Creek!!


There is life that I will live
There is love that I will give
There is joy that I endow
To happiness that I bow




There is this twinkle in my eyes
Which can take you by surprise
There is thunder in my laugh
Which can only melt you heart




There is compassion when I speak
And calmness is what I seek
Challenges make me meek
Nature gives me Peace..
So I take a walk to the creek!!

COLD!!

I cuddle in the cold
I giggle in my soul


I laugh aloud for the words untold
I flood for the ones bitterly told


Alas if I can understand this complicated soul
Every day is a dream to be unfold


How I enjoy this "cold"?


with a sip of coffee and
Memories which aged old.

Life is like an ocean :-)

Life is like an ocean with many tides
Some are high and some are low tides
When the tide is high it does not realize it has to subside
But as the wind goes by it slides




People are part of life
Some stay longer and some slide faster
When the friendship is at high, we have to realize ,
There would be a day for it to slide




Then another tide comes by
And pushes you forward
Takes you high and then slips by
Its time to say goodbye to the passing tide
and welcome to new tide.

The one in my Heart!!

The smile I see on your face, when your eyes catch me from no where

Tells me that you were looking for me…..

The blush on your face when the thought of me runs in your mind

Tells me I’m always there on your mind….

 

The pleasure you get when I’m around even if it’s just momentary

 

Tells me you want me more than anything…

The eyes which you can’t take away from me…

Tells me you need me…

The restlessness I see that you cannot get sometime alone

Asks me for a second chance…

 

This love you give me knowing that I’m the one you cannot have…

Tells me that I’m blessed to have you in my heart..

The life i Choose!!

So much to read
so much to learn
so much to explore

so much to begin

Every step that you take
Leads to a new beginning
the answers that you get
the mysteries that you solve

Nothing comes easy
nothing is failure
everything is an experience
everything is a learning

It's a choice you make
to enjoy the ride
or to feel sad about
and only cry

What others think
about your journey
should not matter to you
What matters to you
is your journey
and should mean a lot to you

What you choose is your choice
I chose to live
live a life i want
in spite of what others want!!
 

A year which passed by!!

I never dreamt that i would miss a year in your life
A year has passed  by without you by my side
Hard to believe, but its true
You are a year older than i knew

I'm not sure how i went through
And how i did what i had to
But it dint feel hard then
As much as waiting for you now

When it's almost time to see you
Each day feels like a month
minutes feel like a hour
and time doesn't move

I havent longed  this much to see you
Even when you were in my womb
Looking forward to see your toothless smiles
And your wiggly teeth
A year has passed by in which you lost your first  teeth !!


With loads of Love
Amma

Oh My Precious Pearl!!!

Where were you My Precious Pearl a year ago
In the wombs of the ocean trying to be discovered it said
My Mother Oyster Shell nurtured me with care and balance
She held me safe through the tides of ocean with tranquility and silence
To create something so beautiful as a Pearl to share

I'm beautiful only when the time is right
To be picked out of my secret shell and brought out into the light


 

You Know your real friends when in bad times!!

Somehow I never understood this statement when everything was fine with me. I only realized the  inner meaning when I was going through bad times.

There are different kinds of people in this world:


A) The Good Listeners:

Some are very close to you, they listen to each word that comes out of your mouth very carefully. You may think they are so concerned and they don’t pass judgments about you like others. But the day when they open their mouth you know how judgmental they are; how they prove they are very good at what they are doing, and how bad your life is. They listen very carefully to project their doings are very correct than what you are today.


B) Mr. Correct:

There are some others who try to prove what they think about your life is the correct way of living.


C) Self Centers:

There are others who are very friends with you, they use you when they want, and when you need some help from them,  they have 100 reasons not to be available for you. They are the kind of friends who use you when they want, and they behave that you are everything for them at that time. When you call for help you won’t hear from them again.


D) The Players:

And these kinds act as if you are their best friend and at the same time show you how they can separate you when they are with their other groups. They play according to their convenience.They want to show themselves as the best. You think they are friends with you and they would treat you the same at all the times, but there is another side to them you might have not known , and you will find that when they are with their close knit of friends , and if you try to fit in they will separate you.

E) The One Sided:


You are their best friend when they are in bad shape and they need a shoulder to cry. They tell you everything that is going on  in their life and how sad they are. But once that incident is over and they are all happy and life is good, they don’t even think of you. They don’t bother to even ask how you are doing or what you are going through.


F) The Needy:

These are the kind who wait for an opportunity, they will know your situation very well . They try to empathize with you, and you will believe that they are there for you if ever you need them. But you don’t know that they are plotting their own plan form behind. They are helping you because they need something form you. You will only know or realize that when the time comes, until then you will be ignorant.


G) The untouchables:

These are the kind who are even scared to ask you how you are doing. Why? If  they ask you ,they are scared where you will ask them for help. They don’t want anything form you and they don’t want you to ask them anything.


The lesson which i learned for this is, there is no better person than you, yourself to depend on than anyone. If you are sad about something just divert yourself form it and try to find your way to solve problem than asking for advice. If people know you are going through hard times, for  the most part, it will only make them happy. You are capable enough to take your own decisions.


Conclusion:
Hard times will only make you strong to deal with situations in life in a better way.

Har Ek Friend Kamina Hotha Hai

I cant take worry for an answer !!

I hear most people say "I'm worried"

Worry is not an answer for your problems, solutions are. When you are worried, you are going no where .You are just lingering in your thoughts which takes you no where then where you are. Instead if you are focused on finding  solutions for your problems, you are working towards your goal and you will surely find answers.With worry you  are still sitting there thinking about your problem with no solution.

If you just sit and say "what will happen?" Nothing is going to happen. Instead try to find solutions, keep all your options open. Have plan A,B,C...if one thing fails something else might work.

Start focusing on what you need to do, than what might happen. Life is too short to just be worried. Act on your problems and you will surely find solutions.

There is always something good in every situation you are in, Just that you should be willing to see it and enjoy it while it last.

When we are going through hard times in life, its always difficult to focus on good things. As our mind is bend upon the things that are not happening , than what we have. Each situation is handled in different ways by different people. What might be something very small for me, might be a big issue for someone else. It's all in the perspective, how you want to look at it. 

Its difficult for anyone to change at once. When you know your weakness and you are willing to change,you need to practice the change.Its one step at a time, its a constant practice of your mind. It worked for me , i practiced it , telling myself that i want to change as i dint like what i was.No one can change you unless you help yourself with constant dedication.


Consistency is the key for anything. Its a constant practice for one to enjoy life and find happiness in the things you have and appreciate what you have, than focusing on what you want and what you dont have.

Each day is beautiful , enjoy it !!

V Day 2013

Flowers make a women feel special , if its V day or any other day. One of our manager brings in roses for every one in the office , this one is mine.

Another manager gave us this Yumm cupcakes!!



And this is from my Husband!!

Far distances are shorter when you are in our hearts. Still the distance is farther when you are not here with us.





This one is from my son who is miles away from me.



I wish i could be .....

I feel there is a reason for the people who are in our life's, each one teaches us somthing at the end. I wish i could learn form everyone and be a better person myself.

 Most of all ...

I wish i could be the inspritaion that people are looking for

I wish i could be the strength to the weak

I wish i could be a doctor to heal the suffering

I wish i could be a light to guide

I wish i could be the motivation to reach a goal

I wish i could be rich to share my money for a good cause

I wish i could bring a smile on everyone

I wish i could be friend when needed

I wish i can live forever  in everyone's heart like great people

I wish i could be the person who can make a difference with this life that i have been given!!

I wish i could write like you Preety :-)  when i read some of your poems i feel you wrote just what's is in my mind.

Last but not least I wish i could be the change.

Deep fried Devil :-)

One of the things that i enjoy on a weekend is to cook something special for my children. So the morning sack for my daughter today  is a deep fried devil.

Look whos in the fridge

A second unwatched my peanut is everywhere.

Snow and Sunshine today

One of those beautiful days where we see right amount of snow and sunshine to add in the morning to clear the roads. Days like this gives us a chance to sip our cup of coffee in peace.

Sankranti Subhakankshalu

One of my best friend wished me sometime back with this poetry on a festival, it just reminded me of him today.. so recording this in my blog so that i wont forget..

Pasidi pantalu
Muggu Gobbemalu
Haridasu Patalu
Kodi pandelu
Bhogi mantalu
Gangireddu atalu
Bommala koluvulu
Sankranti Subhakankshalu

One foggy day!!

We woke up early today to surprise a friend on her birthday, came back and started playing in the lawn on this foggy day, one of those simple moments  with my daughter on a weekend.

Beautiful sky this morning!!

Most people are night persons these days, but they miss the beauty of the early morning. This is one of those days when i was driving to work around 6:45 am. Its a beautiful morning.